Someone I loved very much
Died in the stillness last night
My heart, my joy, and all my cells
Were dimmed of any light.
A kaleidoscope of sorrow,
Odd-mosaic of ill-sized pain,
A trek through a hunched mean forest
Where the body had been lain.
Confusion; moving stillness
The fog held such a loss,
I couldn’t understand the pain;
How to gold-cover this hard cross?
Wouldn’t meet our child.
Couldn’t touch his face.
Couldn’t go soul to soul again……
I WOKE,
AND LIFE WAS GRACE.
Like the breaking of a window
I woke to gasps of light
Sucked in the chance to love again
Sleep-fought the guardian of the night.
Someday this burden will be real
It’s humans’ pain, I know.
This time, the angel of death
Took him up-but let him go.
Love! I will love and love,
I will be greedy of this chance.
Why do sweetness and sorrow
Sway together when they dance?
I must stop the inward mumbling
Of when things don’t seem all right
I will reach for joy and laughter
But I won’t forget the night.
Written Jan 17, 2022 after a nightmare.
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